At a going away party for two of the professors, there was an open mic for those who would like to say goodbyes. As faculty went up and made their speeches, one of my classmates surprised us all by stepping forward.
She had barely made it to the podium when she started crying! In between sobs, we heard her story: one of the leaving professors had been her first proctor during practicals. The other was a fantastic lecturer.
But the real reason for the sudden emotional release? Today marked the end of the first semester of medical school, as well as the release of grades. Emotions are hot right now. It's understandable right? We've been pushing for so long, grinding away dutifully, all for a number. We've been pacing ourselves like a marathon runner, but with a constant fear: is our speed is fast enough? Today, we found out if it was.
That barrier we push at has been suddenly and abruptly removed. At this moment, there's a slight hesitation to relax, worried that I might get too accustomed, too comfortable. We've spent these months developing methods and habits that work for the lifestyle of a medical student. And we all know, good habits are easier to destroy than to build.
I'm going to do my best to relax this break and establish a clear divide between my school persona and my......other half? I don't have a name for it, and I'm not sure if I even have one. But I do know that this break is as good a time as any to make one.
I love reading your blog. You have a way of expressing your genuine feelings into words. It helps me reflect on how far we have come along this semester. All the stress, meltdowns, and frustrations are totally worth it in the end! Enjoy your break. See you next year ready to make more Sporcle quizzes :)
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